I'd be at work making money and I'd almost be finished a job today and then I'd be off looking at another job right now.  I'm waiting for someone to get out of bed so I can borrow the money for gas and necessities.  When you are this far down, that's how hard it is to get up.  Opportunities just keep passing so you learn to turn it off and distract yourself otherwise you just find yourself even worse off.  This has been a very common theme for months now.  It's just another day until I get strong enough to operate independently.

Creditors, this is why I do not answer my phone.  You just cause me more harm.  The phone calls starting in February, March, April, were just another completely disabling thing to deal with.  A first they just amplified stress as I tried to stay ahead of you and then it grew worse into psychological collapse after re-planning and reattempting in failure to make each new attempt.  I understand though, I am not laying blame.  I'd want my money too.

It's too bad I didn't have this site set up and running as I did in January.  If it didn't get shut down I could have logged everything.  You have to understand all the tiny compounding problems, it's almost unreal some of the things.

Anyways, instead of phoning you should feel free to write electronically.  The worst thing I am going to do is Publicly Log you.

PS.  Look at that timing, just as I finish writing this I get a phone call.  Sorry, I will not ANSWER for Psychological Health reasons.