I feel bad for this, but I perhaps a reader would tell me not to. Paying my rent of $700 in July for a single bedroom, the Land Lady wrote a Receipt for Counselling. If I didn’t catch it upon her putting it in my hand, that is what the receipt would have said. Naturally, she claimed it was an innocent mistake but personally I never felt it was. In the very least, I had felt that is was a sign, a writing on the wall, of the continuous underlying dynamic.
She is a counsellor, it could be easy to do, but too much was said to make me think differently by July 1st. Anyways, the next month did the same, but she made a point of catching herself in my presence. She knew her intents in those very moments the pen hit the paper, I am not going to pretend to know what they were, but I do want to leave it here as for me there was far too much drama in that house. Not only that, but far too much self-serving policy changes always keeping me in unstable footing.
All I wanted was Peace, Privacy and to keep to myself. I cannot blame Margaret for Leeanne’s actions, but I had mail disappear and be with held, I had parcels thrown hard at my door while receiving shouts of verbal abuse, clothes I had to throw out after bleaching, I swear new clothes go missing, laundry rifled through while it was in the machine (often), promises to buy my TV, promises for arrangements with a lawyer when I was in a messed up state, all kinds of things.
Any failures of providing too much information were my own doing, but then I also have to ask… if they really were. Given the option I would have kept it all to myself, however.. being told yes, only to be told no I cannot move in while I am actually about do that… does lead to someone opening themselves up. I was even destabilized right when I was offered a three month contract for an easy fulltime job at $60/hr. As I became suicidal laying in bed in my room sick for days on end, I was badgered even MORE. Anyways…